Monday, March 22, 2010

He doesn't live here anymore.




But my Christian is not lost.

I know exactly where he lives and the kind of company he is keeping.

Oh how I do miss him, though!

22 comments:

40winkzzz said...

:-(

i guess there will always be reminders. and i'm sure that is a GOOD thing, because you sure wouldn't want to forget that cute little guy. but i'm sorry that even dumb things like filling out a census form have to evoke sadness...

Beckypdj said...

I've been thinking the same thing about the census. We got ours a couple of weeks ago. I've put it in a drawer. I will fill it out, but I haven't yet. It was really cruddy to leave Peyton off of our 2009 tax return. Peyton is not our "dependent". He lives with our Heavenly Father and he is well taken care of, just like your Christian. :)

Annemarie said...

Amen!

Samantha said...

Wow. You amaze me! Preayers.

Sneaker Teacher said...

Wow, sudden reminders like that can't be easy, yet surely there are many things about Christian that you don't EVER want to forget, so even though it is hard to think about him, I hope that it helps you keep him very close to your heart!

Katie

Karen said...

Yeah...it was hard for me to think about filling this out. But...you picked me up! But my heart still goes out to you...

Angie said...

I am SO thankful that we do have that assurance that Christian is in heaven with Jesus.

For some reason the Newsboys popped into my head. They were my favorite Christian band when I was a teenager. They had this song called "Breakfast"

One of the verses goes....

"Those here without the lord,
How do you cope?
For this morning we don’t mourn
Like those who have no hope"

We still mourn but differently....Thank you Jesus!

-:¦:- Tamara -:¦:- said...

(((Hugs))) You are absolutely incredible and such a strong and solid inspiration of faith in your grief journey.

Susan said...

oh those sneaky things that pop up to remind you of your dear boy. In the one sense it hurts, but in the other, your assurance of where he is living is so encouraging. Thinking of you.

GlowinGirl said...

Marsha, I'm new enough to your blog that this is the first time I realized you had sent a child home to Jesus. I'm so sorry for your hurt.

I'm glad I read your post today. I have a good friend visiting this week that lost her daughter in 2008, and I'm praying for a mom in our community who recently lost her little boy in a farming accident. I'd like to share your journey with them, and I appreciate the reminder that little things can be a big trigger.

May God continue to bless your family and use your pain to heal others.

Emily said...

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.

Christine Sweet said...

oh girl. girl. GIRL!

You are amazing. The way you handle deafening grief with such grace. I know, I know, it's not always like this. Sometimes you're just messy with it. But you are an inspiration to me. You are so at peace. AT PEACE. Wow. Truly, you are something to behold! Praising God for His grace and mercy to you this day and for his sweet reminders of the company he is keeping. Wow, can you just see it?

I cannot imagine the range of emotions you feel. I hope to never diminish the vastness of your pain. But I do pray I am able to rejoice with you in the vastness of your hope.

Beth said...

Holding you in prayer this evening as I read about this....bitter sweet, I'm sure those reminders are. I'm so glad he's with the Ultimate Provider!

Jac said...

Praying for you tonight, as I'm reminded once again how thankful I am for our true HOME in heaven! What a day that will be... :)

RaD said...

Awww... That does have to be hard. But I do agree with the other posters, even though those reminders are hard, at least you have many good memories to focus on that you wouldn't want to forget about.

Stacy said...

Not gonna lie.. When this popped up in my reader my heart broke for you. Loving you in CO. xo

H-Mama said...

(((((marsha)))))

"Miss" Anita said...

I'm sooo glad we know where he lives and with Whom!

EEEEMommy said...

((Hugs))

Christine said...

I love you Marshy!!!

Becca~TimeWellSpent said...

The reminders never stop huh? Aren't you happy to know you'll see him again! Doesn't take the missing him away ((((hugs))))

Janne said...

(((hugs))). I'm sorry. I think about you and Christian often.